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I have had some pretty crazy dreams lately. Two that really stand out. I know what you're thinking, don't you have a 3 week old baby? How are you dreaming? Well I'll tell you both dreams happened when I was only asleep for 30 minutes so apparently if you're tired you can slip into REM sleep pretty quickly.

Dream 1
My Mom and I were going to lunch and when we got the restaurant my 4th grade teacher was having lunch with my grandmother (the one I blogged about passing away). Some background, my 4th grade teacher taught with my grandmother for many years before moving schools and teaching me.  I told my 4th grade teacher I didn't think it was healthy for her to having lunch with my grandmother since she was no longer living. She agreed and my grandmother was gone. Then all of the sudden Stella was there. I asked where she should sit and everyone at the table said "of course where Frances was sitting". 

I know this sounds crazy but I feel like that was my grandmother's way of saying "I'm still with you everyday, I'm part of your baby girl".  With Stella being such a great baby I have to say the thought had occured to me before. Even when my grandmother was at her worst health, she had the most pleasant disposition.

Dream 2
I was back at my old job, the one I had right before my current job.  Several people had their babies at work and I decided to bring Stella but put her in the basement of the building on a couch and kept forgetting to go check on her (WHO DOES THAT???).  When I finally did go look for her she was gone and I was suddenly in a forest. I found her with her friend Lily (by best friend's daughter) BUT she was about 5 years-old (so was Lily, Nicole, it was so crazy).  I had this overwhelming sadness, I missed my baby, I hadn't had enough time with my sweet 3 week old. I wanted to grow with her.

I then woke up and went to feed Stella. I hugged and kissed her and told her I wasn't ready for her to grow up just yet.

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  1. Your grandma is with you and Stella. That was definitely the purpose of that dream.

    And, I cannot wait to see a 5 year old Lily! Ha, ha. But, I do agree that you don't want to rush Stella. Plus, I need to meet her before she grows up too much!

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  2. Love the dreams!!! I am SO pumped that your grandma is still checking in...and also that our girls will go off on random forest adventures. To find fairies? Probably.

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