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I'm Ready.....As I'm Gonna Be

Welcome to my blog! My name is Emily Hawkins and I'm so excited to be starting this! My goal for starting a blog was to have my house sold and be pregnant. Well, I have the pregnant thing going on but we are still in our house in Jefferson, GA.  We love it here but it's very far from where I work (between a 1.5 and 2 hour commute one way). We are very excited about baby Hawkins coming in our lives but the house not sellng is a little stressful.  We are going to have to carry 2 mortgages. I know there are plenty of people in the US doing this right now and they are all saying cry me a river.  Still, it's scary to extend yourself that much! Hence this blog title, I'm ready to start the blog....as ready as I'm gonna be. There is another reason for this title. A week after I found out I was pregnant I was at the gym running on the treadmill (let's be honest I was slowly walking on the treadmill, counting the minutes until I could get off) listening to my IPod on shuffle and this song came on. Bryan Adams reminded me that regardless of our house selling and the crappy economy, I'm ready for you baby. There's never a good time to have a baby right?
This song also has significance for another reason. For those of you who don't know, I'm on my second marriage. I have done a lot of soul searching (therapy rocks!!) and I'm finally comfortable with myself and was able to let the most amazing man on earth come into my life and change it forever.  We have been together for almost 4 years, married 1 and every day gets better. I was only able to find Darren because I finally knew who I was, what I wanted and how to be a good partner. Don't get me wrong my first marriage was NOT my fault (I seriously hope you are laughing right now).  I wasn't mature enough for marriage and my biggest regret is hurting someone else. Although that painful lesson was a good one.  Now with Darren in my life and our baby on the way, I finally feel ready to be a Mom. (as ready as someone without kids can be)

If you are lucky enough to have a second chance at happiness like I was it's pretty wonderful!
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  1. gloverfamilySeptember 18, 2011 at 11:06 AM

    First comment, but definitely not the last!! I will stalk you daily, or hourly if you post a lot . I just realized I didnt send you a card for your anniversary. Happy one year, a month late!! I'm so excited for you and cannot wait to meet my niece or nephew. (Nephew) I'm also so happy that I was along for the ride for the last 12 years of your life. Love you!!

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  2. hughesfamilySeptember 18, 2011 at 11:51 AM

    Shoot. Melissa beat me. I will have time to be first next time. Please post a lot. I am excited.

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  3. Lizards5September 18, 2011 at 3:18 PM

    I am so, so, so happy for you! Motherhood can be stressful but it is always worth it. If you have a shower down here I would love to see you, and of course invite myself ;-) Can't wait to read your progress.

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  4. Audrey M.September 18, 2011 at 4:33 PM

    Beautifully written :) I am absolutely thrilled for you guys! It is so exciting and wonderful to be a mother!

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