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Stella and Mitch,
It's been a rough few months where everything has been tested in my life. I have learned so much about myself, what I'm made of and how much I can take. This time has taught me
- feeling pain is important. It makes you stronger and better in the long run. When you feel pain please lean into it. For there is where you'll know true joy when you find it. 
- have hard conversations NOW! Telling others how you feel and what you expect makes everyone happier. Whatever you imagine in your head is always worse than the actual conversation. 
-your father has taught me so much about love and without his support, guidance and amazing giving heart I would not have persevered. Find a help mate, hold them tight, because a true partner in life is where magic happens
-love each other. A sibling is probably the coolest relative you'll ever have. They are the only ones in the world that will know you the best because they saw you grow into it. 
-Breathe, feel your actual breath move in and out, feel your pulse. Do you hear that? That's the person in control. 😉

Don't run from uncomfortable. You can't eat it away, drink it away, snort it away or inject it away. Feel it. Trust me, this is the key to learning who you are and the greatness that you are destined for. 

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